I am really nervous about my doctors appointment today.
So nervous that if I had any choice in the matter I would not go.
It's one of those events where I feel much safer just not knowing.
I'm feeling better.
I know I'm getting better.
But how will I feel if the tumors have grown?
That is what I'm nervous about.
Disappointment will be a given, but I don't want it to lead to anything more.
What decisions will I have to face if they are growing?
And why am I doing this to myself?
I need to be trusting in God right now and not letting the "what if's" scare me.
So.... I'm going to go pray about it, and I would appreciate if you would, as well.
I'll blog tonight about the results unless something catastrophic prevents me. :-)