I've let myself get discouraged.
Not that my life is all disappointments.
There are so many, many amazing things going on.
But I've let myself get discouraged about the disappointments.
Emphasis on I'VE. I'm afraid I've been leaving God out of the picture.
I've had all the trips to Chicago.
We haven't been going to my mom's, so I'm busy keeping our lives somewhat together.
For some reason God is the first thing that slips.
And when my time with God slips, discouragement sets in.
There are always disappointments in life, but with God's help they can remain disappointments and not turn into discouragement, leading to depression.
It has been disappointing that even though I'm feeling better recovery is so SLOW! I want all my hurt and pain, tiredness and coughing to be gone now. Not lingering along the edges of my life.
(I want to be able to eat SUGAR! And I have a few times, and that is part of my problem. But I'm trying to do better again. It's hard to get out of a long standing cycle. I always turn to sugar when I'm discouraged. In my case that is dangerous at this point. Sugar is just compounding my problem.)
The last week or so I've let that disappointment turn into discouragement, and it's not pretty how feeling sorry for yourself can make you.
I could say it's because I'm tired, all the traveling, but that would be a lie. It's just plain old discouragement that I've let take over.
Yes, it is hard to wake up knowing your day is going to be a struggle simply because you don't feel 100%. Also knowing that two little girls are going to tax what energy you do manage to dredge up. But it can be done with God's help. And it can be done well. I am quoting, "With God, all things are possible" over and over again lately.
Today I want to focus on my Lord. The only one in my life who can turn the disappointments into things to rejoice in.
So I don't feel 100%, at least I am way better than I was.
My girls are healthy and want to get into everything. I'd rather have it that way than two little ones who are lethargic and don't care about what is going on around them.
It might be a little harder to get over the disappointment of yesterdays primaries. Do people really think it is going to help Iowa's economy to put someone back in office who was part of the process of todays problems in the first place? But that is a completely different problem, and I hate politics. However, if I were in charge of the world.... :-) Thankfully I'm not. I'm just trusting that God is in his Heaven, He knows what is going on, and somehow everything will work out for His purposes. :-)
Glad I can trust in that in the big and the little goings on of this life.
Everyone have a wonderful day. Thanks for your prayers.