Saturday, December 11, 2010

How did it go?

In my defense, this was written to post yesterday. We had a bit of bad weather that brought us a couple of welcome but unexpected house guests. :-) They couldn't get home.

So, instead of coming down and tweaking my post I watched "It's a Wonderful Life."

I haven't watched that for years.

I decided I really like that movie. :-)

But..... on to my post.

Sometimes it is so hard to evaluate my doctor's appointments.

A naturopathic doctor's evaluation isn't based on x-rays or blood being drawn.

This time?

My body was stressed.

I wasn't surprised.

Last month was tough.

The pain meds that I went through really did a number on my body.

I knew I was struggling, but you don't realize how much until someone else evaluates you.

It's hard on a normal body when it reacts to medication, but when you are already worn down a bit it is just that much harder to recover. So.... actually I'm doing quite well. :-)

My body is responding to what he is giving me - that is good.

It is slow..... super slow.... but it is a little bit of progress.

As with my oncologist, this doctor is finding my case a challenge. While he told me he isn't delighting in my pain and struggle, he is intrigued by my case.

Hopefully that intrigue will lead to a cure.

There is one thing I am super excited about this time.

I walked in the door and about the first person I talked to mentioned some new natural pain medication.

Could it be possible?

I almost didn't dare hope for something like that after my past month of disappointments.

The person, and my doctor, both said they had been on some prescription meds and these worked just as well or better.

After a couple of days of taking them I was getting optimistic. But not sold yet. I do have many days without joint pain.

On Thursday, after the trip, I had taken the pills, just because I need to take six a day.

Then I felt my hip going into a spasm.

You guys, I cried. I really did.

I wanted this pain medication to work so badly.

I walked around, telling God that I was really trying to rejoice, despite the pain, but it was so, so, so, so, so, hard.

I think it was the disappointment more than the pain that was causing the tears. I just wanted it to work.

I hopped into a hot shower to get a little relief from the joint pain and try to live with the splitting headache I currently had due to some old pain prescription meds I had taken over our trip.

Still crying, I told God I really needed relief from all of this.

When I got out of the shower, the pain was gone.

It's happened one other time since. The pain will flare up, but it will go away quickly.

Before it has taken hours and about 9 Ibprophin to kill it.

Am I excited? Yes.

Am I willing to recommend it yet? Not yet. Give me another month or so and I'll tell you if it keeps working. :-)

So far, so good, though. I've taken it a few more times as I start to feel uncomfortable and it goes away. And best of all.... I can still breath. I am not coughing up blood, and there are no side effects except my silly stomach for about five minutes.

I have another thing to try for my lung. I'm excited about it as well.

So..... How was the trip? We had so much fun as a couple. The pain medication alone was worth the trip, but I'm hoping that the other thing will really help me.

Oh.... and I am on this new Omaga3 fish pill. He described it as freeze dried salmon brains. Yum, yum, yum! Any one else care to swallow a few salmon brains with me?

Actually, it is an easy pill to take. Little, and it only tastes slightly fishy. :-) I've had much worse as pills go.

I wish I could give you more about how I'm doing, but that is it. This is such a waiting game and can be so discouraging.

If you could pray for me in that area I would be so blessed. I want to stay strong and encouraged and I know I can in the Lord, but....

"My spirit is willing, but my flesh is weak."

Good think God is strong!

1 comment:

The Roli Poli's said...

I've been finding myself grumbling and complaining lately about whats going on in my life. But then I am humbled when the Lord brings you or others I know who are truly suffering. Thank you for sharing everything so openly. I really learn from your example and the Lord reminds me to pray for you often.
Some verses that are really encouraging me right now are Romans 8:18-27. Hope they encourage your heart as well!