I laughingly said as I took this picture that as long as I focused the camera on me we should be ok, forgetting that we had zoomed in the camera for a previous picture.
All three of us giggled when we saw the results, because it turned out to be focused on me and me only.
I still get a chuckle when I remember the teasing I received about being stuck on me.
The chuckle turns into thoughtfulness as I realize how often my focus is just that.
Me and me only.
I forget that life isn't about me.
Not even a tiny little speck of it.
It is so easy to get wrapped up in self - especially so, it seems, when you are failing in your health.
People ask you how you are feeling - and you talk about yourself.
(A disclaimer here, I don't mind people asking how I'm feeling. I don't mind answering. It's just harder to get my focus off myself when I talk about myself. :-)
You see doctors, and you talk about yourself.
You complain about how you are soooooooooooooo tired to your hubby, and your kids - once again talking about yourself.
I can see the lure of seeing a shrink. It's nice to talk about yourself and your problems. :-)
Granted, when you are sick you need to do a bit of talking about yourself because communication is necessary to get better.
However, I'm discovering that the focus on getting better can quickly shift to having a complaining heart and feeling sorry for yourself attitude.
God put three verses in my mind as I fell asleep last night, worrying about a few things.
1. Do not fret, it only causes harm.
2. Rejoice always.
3. Trust in the Lord with all your heart.
And a song....
Jesus, Lover of My Soul (It's All About You)
It's all about You, Jesus
And all this is for You
For Your glory and your fame
It's not about me
As if You should do things my way
You alone are God
And I surrender to your ways
It is all about Him. He doesn't need to do anything at all my way. He may want me to live like this the rest of my life and I need to be ok with that.
My circumstances are for His glory, not mine.
The prayer of my heart is that I remember to surrender to His ways.
The picture is silly, and I'm sure I'll get many a giggle as I look at it over the years, but I want that to be the only thing in my life that is focused on me.