Wednesday, August 25, 2010

Praying for what seems impossible...

The goal in my treatments at the chiropractor is to obviously whip my body into shape and get the tumor to dissolve.

It's turned out to be a tricky, time consuming, and overall frustrating goal.

The past month I've been fighting off a cold which has taken up residence with my tumor.

At the colds first knock my tumor opened the door wide and said, "come on in, it's a bit lonely in here. Let's have a party!"

And party away they have. The congestion has made breathing a tad more difficult. Some days I've had an almost constant wheeze. Not a wheeze like I had when the tumor was causing it, but a wheeze that comes with congestion.


I did tell the doctor about it.

He agreed it could be a cold.

He also mentioned something that excited me just a tad.

Because of the treatments my body wants and doesn't want at the moment, indicators are that we may be starting to win the fight over this tumor.

I don't feel like it at all physically.

In fact, I feel pretty lousy.

However, many people have said it gets worse before it gets better.

The chiropractor is cautiously saying the tumor may be dying or dead. Which means it may be beginning the process of breaking up.

Hence part of the reason I have so much congestion, as well as why my body is wanting certain medicines.

I pray, and ask you to pray, that this is right. I'd like to march into my lung and toss that tumor and the cold out on their ear. For now I'll have to content myself with giving them 6 to 9 months notice.

Or.... it could be a whole lot longer than that. Thankfully God knows.

I do have a prayer request.

I'm not sleeping well. Partly due to the fact that I can only lay on one side and still be able to breath. It's the side I never sleep on, but I'm grateful that at least I have one side I can actually lay down on. It could be none at all.

Why else I can't sleep I'm not sure. All I know is that I desperately need it. So thank you in advance for your prayers.

I'll be honest. It's hard to have a positive outlook on anything when you need sleep. Tumors turn into unbeatable monsters if you aren't careful, and I know that having a positive attitude is a huge portion of the healing process.

Love all of you!


Rosanne said...

Oh, I hope this is the great news we've been praying for! And I hope you're able to sleep better; as if you didn't have enough to deal with, huh?! :) One of my favorite verses: "The LORD your God in your midst, the Mighty One, will save: He will rejoice over you with gladness, He will quiet you with His love, He will rejoice over you with singing." Zeph 3:17

Amy@My Front Porch said...

I will be praying along with you! I hope it truly is the tumor starting to break up and get out of there!

The Roli Poli's said...

Praying for you Becca. praying for your healing, realief, peace,comfort and sleep! Much love to you.

Carol said...

Becca, I'll be praying for you- that if not sleep, you'll feel energy and God's rest, that the tumor is losing it's battle.
I know I dont know you very well, but If theres anything I can help out with- physically, medically, an ear to listen, etc- please feel free to call.