Nervous

I am really nervous about my doctors appointment today.

So nervous that if I had any choice in the matter I would not go.

It's one of those events where I feel much safer just not knowing.

I'm feeling better.

I know I'm getting better.

But how will I feel if the tumors have grown?

That is what I'm nervous about.

Disappointment will be a given, but I don't want it to lead to anything more.

What decisions will I have to face if they are growing?

And why am I doing this to myself?

I need to be trusting in God right now and not letting the "what if's" scare me.

So.... I'm going to go pray about it, and I would appreciate if you would, as well.

Thank you!

I'll blog tonight about the results unless something catastrophic prevents me. :-)